first rehearsal
Jun. 9th, 2004 08:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gilanaWe had our first rehearsal for Variations on the Death of Trotsky last night. The director had us start by doing some stretches and some movement exercises. The ones where everyone was doing something at once weren't easy for me, but I managed. The ones where we had to come up with some sort of movement one at a time are just painfully difficult for me. It's so incredibly scary -- there's a little voice in my head saying "you know you can't do this and everyone is going to think you're stupid and no one will like you and everyone else is better than you" and on and on. And I know that none of that is true, but I just hate it so much. I tried to let go of all that and just do the best I could and chalk it up to trying to do things that are hard for me, but I really really hope we don't have to do that every time. I'm sure there are a lot of good reasons for those exercises, but for me it mostly makes me shut down, not open up. I'm working on it. I managed to not refuse to do any of them--and that was a challenge--although I think I did shoot a few pitiful glances at the director.
Interesting, I just realized that I hate improv in pretty much any form. I play music, but only with sheet music and notes; I don't jam. I dance, but only dance forms that have set steps I can learn. I'll perform in plays, but only with lines to memorize. The jewelry I make is pieces with predictable repeating patterns. I'm extremely creative, but only within very safe structured parameters.
We read through the play twice and spent some time talking about Trotsky, history, staging ideas, accents, costume, music, and all kinds of things. I came home and ordered a serape off eBay; I do so love playing dress-up. (I'm going to an even at shul Sunday night for which the dress code is 1920s Chicago, and I already had a flapper dress hanging in my closet, although I did buy a few new accessories for the costume.) I need to find a way to work on my Spanish accent in English. I'm figuring on watching the Princess Bride and any Antonio Banderas movies. Oh, and I might have to watch Frida; apparently she had an affair with Trotsky. There was a group photo in one of the books that Aoife brought that had Frida's face scratched out; apparently Mrs Trotsky wasn't a big fan :)
Interesting, I just realized that I hate improv in pretty much any form. I play music, but only with sheet music and notes; I don't jam. I dance, but only dance forms that have set steps I can learn. I'll perform in plays, but only with lines to memorize. The jewelry I make is pieces with predictable repeating patterns. I'm extremely creative, but only within very safe structured parameters.
We read through the play twice and spent some time talking about Trotsky, history, staging ideas, accents, costume, music, and all kinds of things. I came home and ordered a serape off eBay; I do so love playing dress-up. (I'm going to an even at shul Sunday night for which the dress code is 1920s Chicago, and I already had a flapper dress hanging in my closet, although I did buy a few new accessories for the costume.) I need to find a way to work on my Spanish accent in English. I'm figuring on watching the Princess Bride and any Antonio Banderas movies. Oh, and I might have to watch Frida; apparently she had an affair with Trotsky. There was a group photo in one of the books that Aoife brought that had Frida's face scratched out; apparently Mrs Trotsky wasn't a big fan :)
